she's happy now
she treats me like a friend now
am i supposed to be happy?
i dun know

i seriously dont know what i'm supposed to do now.
beg her to forgive me?
that i will change my attitude?
NO WAY.
i have my pride
i really cannot believe her.
nobody is perfect you know.
if you dont like my attitude then too bad.
you know you're very selfish?
people can bear your attitude, they say nothing because they dont want to hurt that person's feelings
but why cant you?
why cant you just bear mine?
you're a coward.
you ignored me.
you showed your attitude to everyone
you avoided me.
instead of showing a black face to everyone, why dont you just SHUT UP?
I HATE YOU.
YOU SELFISH, BLOODY ASSHOLE.
i did not complain about you, so why should you complain about me?
your late comings, mood swings.
i was there for you when you needed help
where were you when i needed help?
gone, somewhere with your other friends, ignoring me.
CHLIDISH IDIOT.
but sometimes i wonder
if the friendship between my close friends and i are real
if you were to break up the friendship with me...
i still have to see you in class, band.
that will be so awkward.
i will have to answer to my dad why i will not be fetching your home.
life will be different.
so different
am i really that bad?
are my words that hurtful?
do people really hate me?
maybe.
i will never find that out.

hallo!